there are always that someone that played such a huge part in your life that you’ll never forget. no matter how scummy or nice they may be. a thought of them can cross your mind, and last thing you know your left to wonder. it’s not as if you really care that the scum of the earth isn’t in your life anymore. it’s jut the fact that in the beginning it sounded so promising, and it got stuck. it got stuck for three years, but when highschool ended… that’s where we ended. sure, your presence everyday has ended… but my feelings towards you is something else. its probably one of those things where you can’t have what you want and it drives you buck wild.

i fell in love with you, without even being with you. is that possible? but even so, it was always a toss up between me and schwee. and you never had decided. you broke both of us, and we “moved” on, kind of.

I’ll never forget that I dated your friend, I fell was over heels for him… or was it just to get close to you? I don’t even know and haven’t thought of it til now.

what else to say about you? I have no idea, but if I were to miss highschool (which I sometimes do). I think of you.

but atleast, I can say thank you. thank you for you didn’t even know what you’ve done. thank you for being the first guy in highschool that opened my eyes to see that there was more fish in the sea rather than my boyfriend at the time (horrible relationship) .

sitting on the phone with you for hours and hours until 6 am and one point getting asked “what would you say if I asked you to be my girlfriend” yes, I remember like it was just yesterday where we were not even sophomores. but me being your girl, never happened.

I still have feelings for you, maybe not as strong as when we were new… but you’ll always have a place in my memories.

I hate reminiscing, it’s not right.

during my years when I was roughly 11-15 years old. I’ve never realized why hollister was such a great brand, and that only preppies wore it. but then around 16 I’ve came to a realization and became more of a girl. but also, the fact that I smoke a lot of weed also brought upon this name brand. including american eagle.

being a stoner, I realized that these clothes are extremely comfy. they are also expensive. but with the five finger discount, or many sales….these clothing items are totally worth the money. hehehe. but once u wear these items you totally know why they charge an arm and a leg for these cheaply made items. being a stoner, and to many other stoners. we wear these clothes religiously . it’s no longer one of those “prep” clothes. why do I say this? not only the stoners who enjoy the lazy brand, emo kids, black kids, and many other people wear this. even milf’s. I not only think I look pretty, I also not look as bummish as I used to while staying comfortable at the same time.

and I also fit in!:) always being an outcast, I feel kind of the same as everybody else. but I don’t at the same time. fit in but I don’t because I enjoy my jeans that are boyfriend type jeans. these boyfriend type jeans that I wear, are bought already ripped and all that looks where everyone complains about how holes should be earned. well. these jeans come in great in hot weather or nice spring weather where shorts or dresses are not thought about when you want to wear jeans. these jeans are so comfortable that when I put them on they remind me of pjs. and it’s great! since I’m such a tiny girl these jeans are baggy and wind goes through them keeping you cool. bought at American eagle. expensive for jeans. I mean like 40 a pop! but sooo worth it.

I’m a cheap mother fucker where I don’t think I should pay more than 10 bucks for a shirt. or I must buy things on clearance.

but anyways. I don’t know why I’m ranting about the clothes I wear, but I need to rant about hot topic.

now hot topic, and how it’s unstealable. they charge such high prices. for cheaply made items. more expensive than hollister for cheaper made than hollister. yes, I totally want to purchase this thin ass hoodie that will rip in the wash for 60 fuckig dollars. no fucking thank you.

I’ve came to a realization that I’ve owned a lot of pets in my life and I have a need to list them..

• 8 dogs growing up which a lot came and went (shitzu, 2 poodles, husky, chihuahua, any many other tiny dogs although the husky was only a pup)
•pitbull pup which is not included because they werent my parents, that I recently bought and is taking care of currently (ruca)
• 4 turtles (have currently)(Lennon, sublime, mr turtle, and booger)
•a goose (named cookie dough)
•2 bunnies that multiplied fast! (gone but were named cocoa and sweetnlow)
• 2 snakes that my parents got rid of, but I enjoyed very much (Linus was great, Lucy was a bitch)
•a couple of chicks but obviously got rid of because chicks are only cute for a little bit of time
•lots of fish
• a couple of perekets

but there’s a few animals that I wish I still had such as the goose and snakes. the goose made an awesome pet and I wish I could have again. it followed me as if I was its mother. but that was many years ago, and would have another if I had the chance. and the yard space hehehe

first, you ask me to pay rent. never in my life would I want to pay for something that is so trashy and messy that’s not even worth living in because your own bathroom doesn’t have a god damn doorknob. in which I’m taking a shower, a fucking down syndrome kid walks in. nor does this down syndrome kid ever closes the bathroom door. nor does anyone flush the fucking toilet. and the fact that when this kid flashes his dick, I don’t want to fucking see it. nor will this kid ever leave me the fuck alone and in some cases fucking attacks me.

second, we recently obtained a puppy. in which there’s trash fucking everywhere. (does not make me happy) to where I cleaned basically everywhere. one week later, it’s back to where it was. puppy grabs everything possible and eats it. to add on to it, puppy makes an accident and parents bitch “damn dog shit in my house” yeah like your house wasn’t shit already.

overall, why would I want to pay rent for this shit? a fucking downsyndrome kid beig a nuesence all day. and a house being a mess. with no doorknob on a room that should have the most privacy? makes me fucking angry. I’d rather pay rent somewhere else because there’s a load of nice apartments with annoying puerto ricans.